I’m worn out. It takes so much energy to control a class and teach. I came away from my first class of the day thinking, ‘Ok, let’s make a plan to get out of here as soon as possible’. I had a break between classes so I escaped upstairs to the top of the building where I could sit out in the sun for a while. I worked through my thoughts until I had reached a place where I was thinking, ‘Don’t let troublesome students ruin my entire experience at the school. They are only a small part of my experience. There is much to be gained from sticking it out’. By the end of the day I was back where I was at the start and making plans to leave. I had a chat with the coordinator and explained I was worn out from doing far beyond what was expected of me from the original agreement. I could still honestly say I appreciate the experience, it’s just that it has worn me down to such a sorry state that continuing in this way is going to make me hate it. I’m just a volunteer after all and I had only been expected to ‘help with pronunciation’ in classes, not independently manage English grammar classes for two year groups. I have also just found out that two of my daily classes get taken from other teachers, and this is causing other teachers to resent my presence. When it comes to the end of the day, I want nothing more than to relax with a hot shower, yet I’m stuck with a bathroom where I have to have a bath out of a bucket containing water cooled by the Nepalese winter. It has reached a point where the only positive I can easily identify are mealtimes, where I get to gorge myself on free food.
|Accommodation||School at which I’m volunteering|
|Distance ridden today||0km|
|Total distance ridden||16,071km|